Wedding Dress

A while ago I mentioned the fact that I wanted to fit into my wedding dress again. Our 5th wedding anniversary is coming up here in 2 weeks! After being married for only 6 months, we got pregnant with our first baby. Since that, probably even before getting pregnant, I didn't fit in my dress. For some reason, I don't know why...it's not like I was going to wear it ever again...but I really wanted to fit in it again. So I set out on the mission of fitting into it again. For nearly 5 years I tried. Here and there, nothing consistent. I probably tried the dress on every few months up until I got pregnant with my 2nd baby. Obviously I didn't try it on then. And then after having her a year ago, I've tried it on probably 10 times...never fit. Even after losing the 25 pounds and weighing what I did back in college. Still no luck. I was sad. Well...a few weeks after the last time I tried it on, I felt skinnier. I hadn't lost anymore weight, but for some reason my bra was too big around and I had to buy a new one. I was 38A and I went to try on bra's and I was a 34aa...Sad, I know. But still...I had lost some inches where the dress never fit. SO...I tried it on again! And guess what! It zipped all the way up, with ease! It was awesome. I cried. (If you've been following my journey, you should know by now I cry a lot. :)

Sometimes I forget that I've lost weight. Mentally I still think I'm fat. I was over weight for so long that it's still taking some time to remember that I'm not fat anymore. Last night at my baby's birthday party I was in some photos/videos and seeing myself was for once a happy moment. Normally, I would delete photos but I'm actually quite happy with how I look. It's a really good feeling to have.

I still have my highs and lows in life...feeling insecure and ugly. It's a normal thing I think. Most girls I know go through this. It sucks. Really bad.

Well, tomorrow is the big day. I sign up for the St George Marathon. I'll find out in May if I get picked or not. My running partner wants to try and qualify for the Boston Marathon...again. I've decided to join her. We need to run the St. George Marathon in under 3 hours and 40 minutes. Averaging 8'30 minute miles. My average now is about a minute slower...so I have a good 6 months to train. We are running lots of hills and about 25 miles a week. As we get into summer we'll be doing sever weeks with 40 to even 50 miles a WEEK. I find that crazy...but still fun at the same time. We did a 9 miler with hills today. It felt great! I love running. It really makes me so happy.

Anyway, that's all for now. Wish me luck in the drawing! Even though it's still a month away. :) I'm extremely excited!!